Monday, June 30, 2014
Two months ago yesterday my brother passed away and as time passes the pain will lessen but he will remain in my thoughts and my heart forever . Memories of those I've lost resurface in the most unlikely places and I'm not ashamed to admit that when they do I have a good cry and thank God they were a part of my life.
I posted the above last night on Facebook, Twitter, and Instagram. It's taken me awhile to figure out if and how to talk about losing my brother and even now I'm not sure my thoughts will be very coherent. I felt like it was time to put it out there and to continue the healing process. His passing brought with it a myriad of emotions and some of those I'm still sorting through. I have a lot of regret and while my head knows there's nothing I can do to change things now, my heart still breaks for what might have been.
If I have learned anything from this it is to tell the people you love that you love them. Don't put things off to another day because that day may never come. Don't feel pressured to move on or to speed up the grieving process. Every loss is different and you know better than anyone how long it takes your heart to mend. I have also been reminded to trust the Lord to hold you up and see you through the rough days.